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ask You to give me the assossiation of bona fide Devotees, where my hope

and faith in the possibility to satisfy and to bring a drop of joy to You, amar Gurudev, to Voyshnovas and to Hari-Name Prabhu

will appear and grow.

Gurudev!please, change my heart!

Make me free from all my art,

Lust, illusion, pride, malice...

Change me, change me, change me, please!

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Give me nature of Your slave.

Take me from this worldly grave

To the light in which I`ll meet

With the servants of Your feet!

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You are the Compassion`s Ocean!

Give me heart full of devotion

To You, to servants of Your Feet,

To sing Holy Names so sweet -

Then my life will be complete!

Jaya Srila Bhakti Ballabh Tirtha Maharj!!!

Kee Jai! Jai!

Unfit dasanudas

Ambarish. (Ukraine, Chernivtsy)

5 from Narayani DD, Voronezh, Russia

Jay Sri Sri Guru-Gaurangau jayatah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gurudev!!!

By Your grace I still remember you. By your grace I am able to come and associate with those who continue Mahaprabhu`s

Seva without interruption. By your grace I still remember my promise to serve Your feet in whichever circumstances. By Your

grace I`m getting understanding of how to continue in this world. With Your kind assistance I was left untouched by the greatest

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calamities which were due to happen. By your grace I`m getting a chance to take only Mahaprasad, chant with devotees of Hari

His Holy Name. By your grace I`m still in their association and they haven`t driven me away.

By Your grace they still remember me. What am I to pray for??? You have surrounded me by Your care, by Your grace. I can

do nothing. I have nothing to pay in return of your affection. I`m unable to accept Your grace. I`m too weak. I`m overpowered by

my own sentiments and desires. What am I to do? I was praying to you to lift for so many times, but now again I`m so far from

even a thought of you. How am I to live? I`m too weak to call out and pray.

I`m getting lost in this world. I`m attracted by everything in this world. How am I to get out? Again I have turned into an

ordinary inhabitant of this world. Where is my faith??? It is lost, and I don`t know where... I have no desire to arise to start Seva

again. What`s the value of my prayers? It is nothing. Where is my sincerity? I have given away everything I had in exchange of

asat-sanga and body-worship. I remember the words you spoke to me at our last meeting, "A mind, which is not attached to

something eternal, will always be disturbed. This world is just turning fleeting pictures, today is one, tomorrow is next... mirage in

desert" I remember your words, but I don`t live your words in my life. My every day is an offence of You. And no repentance. But

I have no right to give up hope. I have no right to stop struggling withall what hinders remembering, Seva and chanting of Nam. I

have no right to stop. I will learn to endure and wait. Whatever happens, I will somehow keep a tight hold on Your instructions.

Bestow upon me desire to serve, desire to make You, the Lord, devotees, satisfied. Desire to become Your eternal servant. Bestow

upon me the vision of devotees, vision of their glories.

Make me understand who are they and how am I to serve them. Give me strength. Allow me to come closer to Seva. Make me

qualified to listen and chant. Whatever happens with me please never leave me. Let all I take, all that comes to me, be Your

mahamahaprasad. I cannot take care of that.

Let every single moment of my life be Your grace, let me be surrounded by you alone, let me see you in all that is in the world.

Fill my heart with fearlessness and peace. Make me your genuine disciple.

Narayani dasi

6 From Urukrama Das & Ragatmika Dasi, Seattle, USA

Dear Srila BV Tirtha Maharaj,

Please accept our humble obeisances. Last year we had the great fortune to have your Holiness visit us in Seattle, USA. Your

mercy and compassion to the bewildered souls of the world has no limit. At your respected age you travel to far places, and by

personal example you lovingly teach people about Vaishnava Bhakti.

By your kindness and mercy you allowed me to travel and be in your association to hear your lectures and chant the Holy

Name with the association of many other kind devotees. Only the Suddha Bhakta can give pure vision, pure knowledge. By your

mercy you give us opportunity for seva, to help us engage our many senses in service for Sri Krsna to gradually control them, and

gradually clean our mind to concentrate on Harinam.

You are the most merciful, you can see our hearts and even we are